Thirty-What?

I think I am turning 31... las (laugh at self!)
I'm getting to the part where I start forgetting what age I am! I remember being young and wondering how anyone could forget. I mean, I remember being one whole hand! (5) or when I no longer had enough fingers to count my age! (11) Well, if that child only knew that age is but a number :)


Actually, some days age is MUCH more than a number... I am starting to think my grandma wasn't so crazy to go to bed at 8 pm. Sounds kinda nice sometimes! I have started realizing that between about 2pm and dinner, I am not coherent enough to handle big girl jobs or questions... those are my FOG hours! Where the lack of sleep, and nourishment takes it's toll! And, if you ever struggle finding something in my house, it is probably because I put it in the wrong place! Like a box of cereal in the fridge or my keys on the bathroom floor because when I got home I ran in there so fast to pee before having an accident!


Those are not every day occurrences, luckily! But yes, this age thing is creeping up on me in good and bad ways!


I'll take the bad though, because I actually like aging. Every year I learn more about myself, I become more comfortable in my skin, I laugh at myself more easily and my cooking sure improves! ;)


I have spent this week examining my life. Where I am against where I thought I would be. Then, where I am against where I want to be.


Am I where I thought I would be?
If you asked me this question as a kid I would say YES!
If you asked me this ten years ago, I would think it too good to be true!


So I took a little detour? I got to the right destination after all right!


So the more important question. Where am I compared to where I want to be?
For the most part I feel like I am living exactly the life I want, just not doing it as efficiently or completely as I wish. I'd like to learn to balance my life better. And though comfort with myself is coming, I would always like more of that! More time with friends, more quiet weekend getaways with the hubby, more tea parties with the girls and more sunny days to throw footballs with Tommy, and always more times to laugh and dance! Those are all on my list. But, really I am feeling pretty at peace with it all.


So I turn 31 in about 45 min... and what do I say to that?
Another day older, another day wiser...another day of blessings (and laundry) in abundance!!

I'll toast to that! Happy Birthday to me!!